Really?!? This is Really Happening?!?
Yes. Why is that so surprising? What had me believe that a plane can’t suddenly have an engine failure while "I" am flying it? Did I think I was invincible? Did I believe that I was special, immune from anything like this ever happening to me? Why was I surprised? Why was my thought not more like, yep, I knew this day would happen, so here I go? I can somehow distinctly remember, somewhere in the back of my head thinking, before this accident, I won’t ever have an airplane ac